drizzly fall day


Just a sleepy Saturday afternoon here. My husband is out in the garage, working on building some shelves; which will be so nice when they're done and the garage is organized. I'm snuggled up on the couch with a blanket, working on a script for a video project we will be filming soon. The video will be shown at a fundraiser event happening in the near future (more details to come soon). It's the perfect fall day, grey skies and a little drizzle falling every once in a while. Fall is my favorite of all the seasons. Growing up in the pacific northwest I never knew how amazing fall was until I moved to the east coast to go to college. I think fall might have been the reason I stayed in Boston for so long. I remember one day during the fall in Boston, when all the trees were bright orange, red, and yellow, going for a drive. As I often did, I began to dream and contemplate what to do next in my life. I remember driving down this road that was lined with bright yellow trees and thinking, how could leave this place that is so beautiful. So I stayed. Eventually I did move and am so thankful that here the fall is beautiful too (although nothing beats a fall in New England).

Fall is also my favorite time because it reminds me of how amazing God is. First off, just the fact that he created fall is amazing. Our creator is creative. He created beautiful things, beauty that points us to a God we can't physically see. The bible says:

"For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities--his eternal power and divine nature--have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made..."  Romans 1:20 (NIV)

The thing that fall reminds me about most, is how God can bring beauty in every season of our life; even the fall and winters of our life. Fall is a time when the trees begin to shut down their photosynthesis processes and get ready for winter where there is less light (i.e. food). During the summer leaves work hard to turn sun and water into food, and then the days start getting shorter and it gets harder to do this. Its like the leaves are saying, well there's nothing left we can do, so we're going to let go of control and let God sustain us through this time. And then when they do let go amazing things happen. They become so beautiful, so bright and colorful.

Can you see the parallel to our lives? Hard seasons will come, times when no matter how hard we try we can't do anything to fix it or make it better. But God is asking us to let the control go and rest. Yes winter is coming and winter is hard, but it's also a time when we can rest and rely on God. And oh, the beauty he wants to create in us when we do let go and rest in Him.

For me this is not just a one time thing. Letting go of control is a daily thing, maybe even more than daily if I'm honest. But man, the beauty that comes when I do this! Here's an example...

Recently I have had to let go of control of trying to figure out how to raise enough money for our expenses during our time in Boston for my surgery. Some friends of mine have stepped up and loved David and I more than I could ever have dreamed. They are in the process right now of planning a fundraiser night for us. Seeing the way God is working, and using them is like seeing the road lined with bright yellow trees. Even though this time is hard, and yes we are preparing for the winter (an even harder season), God is showing me that when I rest in him, and let go control, he has the opportunity to do BIG beautiful things in my life.

I hope that when you see the fall leaves this season it will remind you to rely and rest in God. Only He can create such beauty, but only if the leaves stop trying to do it on their own and rest in Him.